Narayaneeyam: Dasakam: 17

Dashakam: XVII

Shloka: 1

Uttaanapaada-nrpateh manu-nandanasya-------------------------To King Uttanapada,son of Swayambhu Manu,

Nrpateh—King

Jaayaa Suruchih Nitaraam abheeshtaa-------------------------------the wife Suruchi, was extremely dear

Anyaa iti Suneetih---------------------------------------------------------the other wife named Suniti

Anyaa—another

Babhoova anaadrtaa bhartuh-----------------------------------------was disdained (disregard) or ignored by her husband

Saa agatih nityam--------------------------------------------------------she, being helpless, constantly or always

Gata abhoot sharanam tvaam eva------------------------------------took refuge in “You” alone

Tvaam eva nityamagatish-sharanam gataa bhoot ---This line is very important.  All the last line in each shloka in this dashakam is considered to be important.

Swayambhuva Manu
(Sons)
Priyavrata	Uttanapada (wives)
	Suruchi	Suniti
	She was exceedingly beautiful. Because of the physical beauty, hen-pecked King Uttanapada was under her control	She was the embodiment of all virtues like, patience, humility, good conduct. She took complete refuge in You and worshipped as she was ignored by her husband and thought it could be due to the sins committed by her in the earlier births

Shloka: 2

Dhruvah Suneeti sutah drshtvaa tam uttamam----------------------------------Dhruva, son of Suniti, having seen him, Uttama

Suruchi-putrakam anke pituh------------------------------------Suruchi’s son, on the lap of their father

Adhirokshyan kila---------------------------------------------was, indeed, about to climb up on his father’s lap

Shishuh Aachikshipe sutaraam suruchyaa--------------------------------that child, (Dhruva) was severely scolded by Suruchi

Asooyaa Khalu duh santyajaa--------------------------------Jealousy, indeed, is difficult to be given up

Bhavadvimukhaih-----------------------------------------------by those who are not devoted to “You”

Dussantyajaa khalu bhavadvimukhairasooyaa—last line

Suruchi abused the innocent lad severely, because of jealousy. Those people who are not devoted to “You”, cannot give up their or get rid of their evil qualities

kama (lust), krodha (anger), lobha (greed), moha (attachment), mada or ahankar (pride) and matsarya (jealousy); the negative characteristics of which prevent man from attaining moksha or salvation.

Bhakti can help you to overcome the six enemies of mankind. "Krishna Nama Sankirtan" i.e. the constant chanting of the Lord's name is the supreme healer in Kali Yuga. It destroys sins and purifies the hearts through Bhakti ensures universal peace.

Shloka: 3

Dooram durukti- nihatah------------------Having severely hurt by those cruel words (of Suruchi)

Pitari daaravashye--------------------------when his father infatuated (possessed by unreasoning passion or attraction) by wife

Tvan mohite pashyati----------------------and deluded (fooled, cheated, deceived) by “Your” Maya, was silently looking on,

Sah gatah nijaambaam--------------------------he went to his own mother,

Saa api Shashamsa Shishave---------------------She, on her part, advised the child

Pumsaam tvatpaadam eva sharanam-----------------------------that, for human beings, “Your” feet alone are the shelter

Svakarma-gati-santaranaaya------------------------------------to get over the evil effects of one’s own actions

Tvatpaadameva sharanam shishave shashamsa –Last line

Shloka: 4

Aakarnya---------------------------------Having heard his mother’s advice

Sah Panchavarshah api------------------that boy, Dhruva, though only 5 years old

Maanee kila-------------------------------had self-respect, indeed

Bhavadarchana-Nishchitaatmaa-------------whose mind was firmed up on /set on worshipping “You”

Niretya nagaraat----------------------------------having left the city

Sandrshta-naarada-nivedita-mantra-maargaha-----------and having been instructed the method of chanting mantra by Sage Narada, whom he met on the way

Aararaadha tvaam tapasaa-------------------------propitiated (win or regain the favour of God by doing something that pleases Him) by “You” by penance

Madhukaananaante-------------------------------in the Madhu forest

Tvaamaararaadha tapasaa madhukaananaante—last line

Narada gave him the mantra, “Ohm namo bhagavate vasudevaya

Shloka: 5

Taate vishanna-hrdaye---------------------------while the father, whose heart was filled with remorse (Deep regret or guilt for a wrong committed.)

Parisaantvita-chitta-vrttau--------------------------was comforted/consoled

Shreenaaradena gatena nagareem----------------by Sage Narada, who had gone to the city

Baalah kila ninye---------------------------------------that boy Dhruva, indeed, spent

Panchamaasaan Kathora-tapasaa------------------five months in severe penance

Karma-varddhitena------------------------------------that gradually increased in intensity

Tvadarpita-manaah-------------------------------------with his mind, fully dedicated to “You”

Last line—ninye kathoratapasaa kila panchamaasaan

Shloka: 6

He Vibho---------------------------------------------- O All-pervading Lord!

Taavat ------------------------------------------then, (when Dhruva‘s penance reached highest point, peak (zenith)

Digante------------------------------------------the living beings in all parts of the world

Tapobala niruchchvasite---------------------were suffocated by the power of Dhruva’s penance

Tvam devaaarthitah-----------------------You, who were supplicated (ask or beg for something earnestly or humbly) by the Devas

Udayat-Karunaardra-Chetaah--------------and whose mind is melted with rising compassion

Aavirbabhoovitha garudaadhiroodah-------------Manifested “Yourself”, seated on garuda

Purastaat------------------------------------------------before the boy

Tvadroopa-chidrasa-nileena-mateh-------------------------- “whose mind was completely absorbed in the Supreme Consciousness-Bliss of “Your” enchanting form”.

O Lord! when all living beings felt suffocated by the power of Dhruva’s penance, the demi-gods prayed to “You” and being filled with compassion, “You” did appear, seated on Garuda, before Dhruva whose mind was absorbed in the contemplation of Supreme Consciousness in “Your” form.

Dhruva had controlled even his breathing. Since he was now identifying himself with his aatma, which is aatma of all living beings and all felt the effect of his penance and were therefore suffocated.

Shloka: 7

Avagamya tam------------------------------------------------Perceiving (understand) “Him”

Tvadarshana-pramada-bhaara-tarangitam--------------whose mind was overwhelmed (submerge) with waves of ecstasy,(feeling of great happiness) on having “Your” darshanam/ arising from seeing “You”

Drgbhyaam nimagnam iva ---------------------------------and who stood as if his eyes were immersed

Te roopa-rasaaayane------------------------------------------in the nectar of the beauty of “Your” form

Tushtooshamaanam-------------------------------------as desirous (longing, craving, wish) of praising “You”

Samprshtavaan asi---------------------------------------You did touch him

Kapola-deshe-darena------------------------------------on the cheek with “Your” conch (Panchajanyam)

Tathaa aadarena-------------------------------------------with great affection

Panchjanya, (from which had originated the primordial (primary, original) sound of Vedas)

The conchof the Lord is the Veda itself. When it touched Dhruva’s cheek, his feelings blossomed (bloom, flourish) forth in hymns of praises of the Lord.

Dhruva was completely overwhelmed by ecstasy on seeing “You”, feasted (entertain) his eyes on “Your” form which was like nectar. Though he felt an urge to sing “Your” praise in “Your” presence but was not able to find words to express himself. Knowing “Your” child mind, “You” did touch his cheek with “Your” conch with great affection.

Shloka: 8

Taavat avagamya tadeeya-bhaavam-------------------------Then, knowing what was i-vn his Dhruva’s mind

Tvam aabaashathaah enam -------------------------------“You” did tell him

Vibodha-Vimalam---------------------------------------who had been cleansed, by knowledge, of all taint (stain, contaminate)

Pranuvantam-------------------------------------------and who was profusely (abundantly) singing “Your” praise

Dhruva samanubhooya--------------------------------- O Dhruva! After enjoying

Raajyam chiram bhooyah bhajasva-------------------the kingdom for a long time, then attain

Padam Sarvottaram---------------------------------------that place/state which is superior to all

Vinivrtti-heenam-------------------------------------------and from which, there is no return

No sooner was Dhruva’s cheek touched with the conch Panchajanya, the very embodiment of the Vedas, than he attained enlightenment. He became pure in his mind as all his ignorance and negative instincts were destroyed. Immediately he began to sing “Your” praise. Knowing his mind and immensely please with him, “You” did bless him saying ‘O Dhruva! Enjoy the kingdom for long and then attain the place above the worlds of Seven Sages.

Here the word Dhruva-padam in the shloka is split as Dhruva and padam , place –It means as follows, “You will attain that place superior to all others and which is being surrounded or circle around by stars, planets and the Seven Great Sages, from which there is no return

Shloka: 9

Tvayi gate---------------------------------------------------------------when “You” had disappeared

Iti oochishi---------------------------------------------------------------having said so

Asau nrpanandanah upetah nagareem---------------------------this prince came back to the city

Aananditaakhilajanah------------------------------------------------to the delight of entire populace (people, population/by whom all people were made happy

Bhavadanugraha-Poornakaamah-------------------------------with all his aspirations (ambition, desire, wish) fulfilled by “Your” grace

Reme chiram aadrta-raajyabhaarah----------------------------he enjoyed for long, ruling his kingdom respectably

Taate vanam gate cha-----------------------------------------------as his father (King Uttana-paada) retired to the forest

When “You” did disappear having said so, Dhruva came back to the town, delighting all people. When his father left for the forest he took over the administration. All his desires having been fulfilled by “Your” grace, he lived happily for a long time.

Shloka: 10

Deva punah--------------------------------------------------------------O my Lord, later

Asmin uttame nihate yakshena-------------------------------------when this Uttama was killed by a Yaksha

Sah yuddha-niratah  yaksheh--------------------------------------Dhruva got engaged in a war with Yakshas

Viratah manooktyaa---------------------------------------------------but concluded the war as advised by Manu

Mahaatmaa -----------------------------------------------------the great soul that he was, chose as a boon

Aavrnot ----------------------------------------------------------------------- chose as a boon

Sudrdhaam tvadbhaktim eva dhanadaat----------------------------only firm devotion to “You” from Kubera

Upetaat prasanna-hrdayaat---------------------------------------------who approached him with a mind, delighted

Shaantyaa----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------on account of cessation (stop, pause, interruption) of hostilities (hatred, enmity)

Suruchi’s son Uttama, once went to the forest for hunting. There he fought with a yaksha, a demi-god and in the battle, the Yaksha killed him. He took revenge on yakshas by declaring war against them on account of his brother’s death. 

He killed innumerable yakshas and then his grandfather, Swayambhuva Manu adviced him not to kill innocent yakshas as it is a sin and and Uttama’s death is due to the fate, because of his past deeds. It is not right for him to do as stated above, as he is a great devotee who had seen “You” with his own eyes. Dhruva stopped the war immediatelyand became calm and renounced (to give up) his anger and enmity against Yakshas.

Immensely pleased at Dhruva’s action, which resulted in cessation of hostilities and prevalence (being widespread) of peace, Kubera, the King of Yakshas, approached him with an offer of boons. Dhruva, the great soul, was chose to ask for steadfast (firm, stable, constant) and unshakable devotion alone towards “You” instead of mundane (worldly matters, everyday matters, ordinary) favours.

Shloka: 11

Ante ayam maatraa sam--------------------------------------------In the end, Dhruva along with his mother,

Bhavadpurushaneeta-vimaanayatah-----------------------------rode in the celestial/heavenly car brought by “Your” attendants-Nanda and Sunanda

Aaste Dhruvapade muditah---------------------------------------and is living happily in Dhruva-loka even now

Vaataalayaadhipa-----------------------------------------------------O Lord of Guruvayoor

Evam Svabhrtyajanapaalana-loladheestvam-------------------------Thus, ever intent (aim, purpose) upon protecting “Your” devotees

Tvam nirundhi mama aamayaughaan-----------------------------deign (do something that one considers to be below one’s dignity) to eradicate my ailments/ be pleased to cure all my ailments.

Dhruva after ruling 36,000years went along with his mother,Suniti to Dhruva-loka, the everlasting region above the Saptarishimandalam (The Great Bear, the seven great sages). Even now, Dhruva is enjoying the bliss with a contented (satisfied) heart.

From  Bhagavatam

'Pierced by the harsh words of his stepmother, he out of anger began to breathe as heavily as a snake struck by a stick and when he saw his father silently looking on, he began to weep and ran away to his mother.

Having heard from the others what had happened Suniti lifted her heavily breathing son whose lips were trembling (shaking) on her lap, feeling very sorry over what was said by the co-wife.

Losing her composure she cried with a fire of grief which burned like dry leaves and when she remembered the things said by the other wife she spoke through the haze (dull, foggy, confuse, vague) of tears that fell from her lotus like face.

Not knowing how to curb (control) the danger the lady breathed heavily and said to her son:

“Do not wish others anything inauspicious my dear son, a person will have to suffer himself from the ill he wishes others”.

The truth of what mother Suruci has told you about having taken birth from the womb of me, the unfortunate one, and that you grew up on the milk from my breast, is that the king feels ashamed, he regrets it to have accepted me for his wife.

All that your stepmother has told you is true. If you want to sit on the throne just like Uttama, then just engage yourself without being envious my dear son, in worshiping the lotus feet of Adhokshaja, the Lord of Transcendence (beyond the limits).

 The unborn One [your great-grandfather Brahma] no doubt acquired his supreme position in the universe and the qualifications to create, from worshiping the One whom we know by His lotus feet and who can be approached by those who in self-regulation have conquered the mind.

Likewise Manu, your worshipable (capable of worship) grandfather, achieved liberation and the heavenly and earthly happiness that is so difficult to achieve by other means, because he in worship executing sacrifices was of an unflinching (steadfast, firm) devotion and great charity.

 Take shelter with Him, the Kind-hearted One, my dear boy, for people who want to get liberated follow the path of His lotus feet. Worship the Supreme Personality by fixing your mind upon His image, thinking of nothing else and being faithful to your original sense of duty with Him.

Looking for someone else I wouldn't know anyone but the Lord with the lotus eyes who could mitigate (relief) your sorrow. Even de Goddess of Fortune who is worshiped by others my dear, is always with a lotus flower in her hand looking for Him.

'Maitreya said: 'Thus having heard the purposeful words of the mother he, mindfully keeping himself under control, left his father's house.

Narada who came to hear about it and understood his intentions, (aim, object) was surprised and with the hand that could expel all sin touching his head he exclaimed:

'Oh that might of the rulers! Unable to tolerate any infringement (violations) on their prestige, this one being only a child, took to heart the unpalatable (unpleasant, disagreeable) words of his stepmother’.

Nârada then said: 'Why is it that you, a child normally fond of sports and games, at present feel insulted because of not being respected?

 Even though you see no alternative, what reason other than being illusioned would there be for people to be dissatisfied in this world wherein one because of one's karma is separated from one another? Therefore you should be satisfied oh dear one. Whatever it is that fate has    install for a person is by someone who is intelligent, recognized as a way leading to the Supreme. But the yoga your mother told you to do for elevating yourself to His mercy, is to my opinion too difficult for a person like you.

The greatest sages even, who were on the path of detachment for many births, in the trance (ecstasy, hypnotic state) of their strict yoga practice never came to understand what they were looking for.

Stop therefore now with this insistence (persistent, insisting or demanding) of yours, it'll take you nowhere. Save that [quest] for the future, then you'll find ample opportunity [to engage in adult matters like these].

Any embodied soul who is of peace with whatever happiness or distress that destiny reserves for him, can reach the opposite side of darkness. With something [or someone who is] better one should be pleased, with something [or someone who is] of a lesser quality one should be compassionate and with something [or someone] equal one should be friendly. Thus fostering no desires one is never affected by tribulations.'

 Dhruva said: 'This balance of mind you talk about oh Lordship, is [a quality] of people who are merciful with those who with their happiness and distress have lost track of the soul, but for persons like us it is very difficult to see it the way you said it.

 Because I was born a ruler I'm not that tolerant. Pierced by the harsh words of mother Suruci I cannot have a heart [like you].

Please tell me about an honest way to pursue my desire for a superior position in the three worlds. Oh brahmin, a position not even attainable for others like my father, grandfather and forefathers.

You as a worthy descendant of Brahma playing the veena alike the sun travel all around the world for the sake of its welfare.'

 Maitreya said: 'Nârada was very pleased to hear what Dhruva said, whereupon he compassionately replied to give the boy good advice.

Nârada told him: 'The path your mother told you about of fully absorbing yourself in rendering service to the Supreme Lord Vâsudeva, constitutes the highest perfection in life.

 For him who seeks the supreme benefit of the self by what is known as dharma, artha kâma and moksha [the civil virtues of religious righteousness, economic activity, regulation of sense gratification and finding liberation], the worship of the Lord His lotus feet is the only cause.

For that purpose, my dear, go with my blessing to the bank of the Yamunâ and be purified by the sacredness of the Madhuvana forest where the Lord is always present.

When you have taken a bath in that river, [also called] the Kâlindî [according to the name of the mountain where the Yamunâ springs from] - which performed correctly three times a day is a most auspicious thing to do, you should sit down on a sitting place you have prepared. You should meditate upon the Supreme Spiritual Master with an undisturbed mind. Thereto you must, in relation to the life breath and the senses, gradually with the help of the threefold breath control [of prânâyâma: controlling the ingoing, the outgoing and balanced breath] give up the impurities of your mind.

Always prepared to be merciful, He with His pleasing mouth and typical look, His straight nose, arched eyebrows and intelligent forehead, is the beauty of the demigods.

Youthful, attractive in all His limbs and with lips and eyes as reddish as a rising sun, He, as the shelter of the surrendered souls who is transcendental in every respect, is the one offering protection as merciful as the ocean.

Marked with the S'rîvatsa [a few white hairs on His chest] and of a deeply bluish [gray] colour, He is the original Personality garlanded with flowers, showing the conch shell, the disc, the club and lotus flower in His four hands. The garments of yellow silk He wears are complemented by a helmet, pearl earrings, a necklace, bracelets and the Kausthuba jewel.

Pleasing as well the eye as the mind, He has small bells of gold around His waist and His ankles and is of a superior calm, peace and serenity.

He occupies His place on the whorl of the lotus of the hearts of those who in worship unite in the light of the glittering nails of His lotus feet. You should this way regularly envision the smiling of the Lord who is so affectionate with the devotees, and thus fully attentive let your mind meditate upon the greatest of all.

 The mind thus meditating the very auspicious form of the Supreme Lord is, being transcendentally enriched, very soon freed from all material contamination and will never wander off from that position.
Please hear from me the very, very confidential mantra to pray oh prince, from which recited aloud for seven days a person may behold what moves through the ether [planets, heavenly beings, thoughts].

 'Om namo bhagavate vâsudevâya'  [my respects for the Supreme Lord Vâsudeva]. With this mantra [called the dvâdas'âkshara mantra] the learned one conversant with the differences according to time and place [des'a-kâla-vibhâgavit] should exercise respect for the physical appearance of the Lord the way it should be done with the help of the different paraphernalia ( the articles used in particular activity)

One purifies with the help of water, garlands of forest flowers, roots, different fruits and vegetables, fresh grass, buds, bark and by offering tulsî leaves, which are very dear to the Lord your master.

You can [being alone in the forest] begin with procuring (obtain) and worshiping a deity made of physical elements like earth and water [clay], and therewith as a sage be of full self-control in peace checking your speech and eat frugally whatever the forest offers.

Meditate [thereto] upon the inconceivable activities that by the Supreme Lord of Wisdom in the form of an avatâra were performed in order to exercise His supreme will and potencies.

In service of the Supreme Lord you should respect Him in your heart with the mantras that embody Him in the way the previous teachers performed their devotional service as I have told you.

When the Supreme Lord thus with your engagement in service by your body, mind and words is worshiped according to the regulative principles of bhakti, He will increase the devotion of the devotees who are sincerely and seriously engaged and will award them with what they desire in regard of the spiritual life of the conditioned souls and what belongs to it [the so-called purushârthas].

Being serious in bhakti-yoga about your liberation you must in complete detachment from all sense-gratification unrelenting exercise a respect that is steeped in love for Him directly.

Thus being addressed by Nârada, the son of the king circumambulated (circle around) him offering his obeisances (respect) and went to the Madhuvana forest which, imprinted (impressions, mark) with the feet of the Lord, was the right place for him to do penance.

Intensity of penance as described in Bhagavatam

Dhruva, after taking a bath and fasting that night, with perfect attention the way Nârada had advised it.

 For the first month worshiping the Lord he only ate, to the bare necessity of preserving his body, fruits and berries in the morning after every third night.

The next month the innocent boy continued his respect for the Almighty by eating every sixth day as mentioned, on those days preparing his food from grasses and leaves gone dry..

With the third month passing he, fully absorbed in his respect for the Lord of Wisdom, Uttamas'loka, every ninth day drank water only. That way continuing into the fourth month,he by controlling his breath, meditating in worship of God, only ate air every 12th day.

 By the fifth month in full control of his breath the son of the king, meditating upon the Creator, without moving stood on one leg like a column.

With his mind fully controlled concentrating in the heart, he meditated with no other thoughts than the thought of the Supreme Lord His form, upon Him, the resting place for the senses and their objects.

Keeping his mind focussed on the foundation, the cosmic intelligence of the reality, the master of the primal ether [pradhâna] and the person, the Supreme Spirit, all the three worlds began to tremble.

As he remained standing on his one leg he, the child of the king, with the one half [of his body] pressed down the earth with his big toe bent, just like the king of elephants does when he as a boat balances left and right with every step.

Because he in the full of his meditation had stopped his breathing and closed all the gates of his body, he thus by confining the life air was suffocating all the worlds so that soon all the great souls from all places sought their refuge with the Lord.

'They [the demigods], thus being freed from all fear, offered the Lord of the wide strides [Urukrama, Vishnu] their obeisances, upon which they returned to their three worlds. The Lord with the thousand faces [Sahasraseershaa, the original Vishnu] then got on the back of Garuda and went to the Madhuvana forest in order to see His servant [Dhruva].

He who strengthened by his meditation in yoga observed Him brilliant as lightening manifested on the lotus of his heart, all of a sudden noticed that He had disappeared, but looking around he then saw Him standing right before him in the same form.

With Him present before him he, confounded, fell to the ground prostrating his body like a rod to offer Him his obeisances. As he looked at Him, it was as if the boy was drinking Him with his eyes, like he was kissing Him with his mouth and embracing Him with his arms.

Seeing that he wanted to glorify Him but didn't know how, the Lord, who is the prayer in accord with the scripture in the heart of each, understanding the boy mercifully touched his forehead with His conch shell.

Thus being inspired with the ability to say just what he wanted, he, slowly offering his prayers in the love of his devotion, could understand what the supreme of the soul was all about and that he would be the Dhruva of renown and fame whose world couldn't be denied.

'After thus truly being worshiped by means of the fine intelligence of his good intentions only, the Supreme Lord who is always there in favour of His devotees spoke to him, after first having congratulated him.

The Supreme Lord said: 'I know about the determination within your heart oh son of the king. Since you are sworn to piety, (devotion) I shall grant you all the fortune, even though it is a wish difficult to fulfill.

 Never before My good boy, there was anyone who managed to settle for such a brightly glowing place known as the planet of Dhruva, around which all the other planets and constellations of stars are circling like a group of bulls does running stationary around a central pole [for crushing grain]. It is the planet around which, keeping it to their right, along with the stars, all great sages of the forest move circumambulating like Dharma, Agni, Kas'yapa and S'ukra whose lives stretch beyond a millennium.

As soon as your father has left for the forest, you will be awarded the entire world. It will be under the pious protection of your rule uninterrupted for thirty-six thousand years in full control of your faculties.

When your brother Uttama, being killed during a hunt, is sought in the forest by his most afflicted mother, she will run into a forest fire.

After performing great sacrifices for Me, the heart of all sacrifice, and having distributed great charities, you will, after having enjoyed the blessings of this world, at the end of your life be able to remember Me.

Thereafter you will head for My abode that is worshiped on all planets and is situated above those of the rishis. Having gone there, you will never come back.'

'He was by his stepmother's harsh words pierced in his heart and remembering it all and not desiring liberation from the Lord of salvation, he thus suffered grief.

 Dhruva said to himself: 'That what the four Kumâras, those infallible (sure, certain) celibates,(a person who abstain from marriage and other relations) in their absorption never could achieve in one birth, I managed to fathom (comprehend, understand) within six months, but achieving the shelter of His lotus feet I fell down because I fixed my mind on things other than Him.

 Alas, just see the misfortune based upon my bodily consciousness. Having approached the lotus feet of Him who can cut all bonds, I have prayed for that what is perishable. Because the demigods couldn't tolerate it that they [contrary to me, some day] have to return to an earthly life, my intelligence was contaminated and thus I, wretched (unfortunate) as I was, failed to accept the truth of Nârada's instructions.

 Just like dreaming in my sleep I sought my refuge in the illusory energy of God and complained from within my heart. Seeing things in opposition I, under the influence of the outer world, lamented that my brother was my enemy, although he is only a temporary phenomenon.

 This what I prayed for, is as useless as a treatment given to someone whose life has already ended. After satisfying the Soul of the Universe by austerities,which is something very difficult to achieve - I prayed with the One with whom one cuts with the world for a repetition of birth and death and thus I am unlucky.

From Him who was willing to offer me His full independence I alas out of foolishness asked for material prosperity. It is like a poor man who asks a great emperor who is impressed by his virtue, for a few broken grains of husked rice.'